19/01/09
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN!;DD
1. mp scolded th team for losing th last quarter to nanyang.
2. mp scolded me for dressing up weilin's wound?!
3. mp scolded nicoletay for eating prata whn she didnt tell us tht we cldnt.
4. mp scolded me for yaya-ing after th match despite th bad play.
5. mp claimed tht she didnt scold us after scolding us?!
6. i left my ezlink in sch, felicia brought it home.
7. i got up 93 and realised i forgotten my ezlink. th crowd pushed me in.
8. i took a free(?!) ride of 93. bt even if i had my ezlink i nonid pay also. i bought bus pass.
9. i was stranded at mcritchie after cming down frm 93 and th latest stop i can afford.
10. i called pohyijia to bring some coins frm home to bring me home.
11. thus, i owe pohyijia a smthg.

20/01/09
1. got maligned by 855bus driver for nt putting in 5c (whn i did!!!). paid 5c extra. stupid driver.
2. slept during math class. oh great.
3. had self training after cheering for seniors.
4. almost lost my 7days old phone! zomg. heng manzxc.
5. felicia forgotten to bring my ezlink. died by spending 1.80 taking mrt to amk frm harbourfront.
6. additional 55c for bus trip to harbourfront frm rv.
7. harbourfront->dhoby ghaut=sat on priority seat. an uncle lectured me for nt giving up my seat to a pregnant lady.
the fact was i REALLY REALLY DIDNT SEE HER. i really didnt.
8. dhoby ghaut->angmokio=squeezed. a couple was uh (lovey dovey)-ing in front of me, a indian guy was pushing against me as the mrt travelled (slantly).
observation: i realised tht adults does ridiculous stuff eg. play GAMEBOY, read newspapers while STANDING.
9. bought cecilia's bday present in amk hub.
10. realised i forgot to leave some money to take bus! :o
11. called my sister for help. o.o she was lost in bishan. LOL!.
12. pohyijia called limshiping(LOL) to lend me money.
13. shit. now i owe limshiping a 人情.
14. took bus home. wrapped cecilia's present.
15. forgotten i was sharing present w/ pei, didnt write her name on card! :o

21/01/09
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CECILIA! ;DD
1. HIGHLY SUSPECTED the same bus driver of 855. this time i dropped the coins in ONE BY ONE so tht he can see EVERY SINGLE COIN and nt accuse me of paying a freaking 5c less.
2. ran to toilet to rewrap present after adding pei's name into th card. sorry pei. i forgotten i promised to share w/ you!. :\
3. mrs chew asked us to sing louder during the anthem..
4. tenses lang arts lsns.
5. mrs look gave me an anti drug essay application/details form?! cus i gt relatively high for 08EOYlangartspaper1 gt a total of 48/60? o.o
6. did math after sch and handed in.
7. took overstop th freaking 93
digress: finally, my ezlink is back w/ me!
8. dropped at braddell rd.
9. 153-ed to toapayoh. shun bian bought nicoletay's present. ;DD
at first i was still worrying on whn i should get her th present. no time siahhh.
10. bused on 163 home.
11. didnt hv lunch. so finished an astonishing 1bowl of instant noodle/12cookies. :o

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i like the feeling of the bonded team.
i hate the feeling of being maligned by mp.

i like the feeling of being with the barneys.
i hate the feeling of being left out of barneys.

i like the feeling of receiving hugs from people.
i hate the feeling of getting rejected for a request of a hug.

i like the feeling of a warm comfort.
i hate the feeling of a depressing pressure.

i like the feeling of once having something.
i hate the feeling of loosing something i used to have.

i like the feeling of thinking about the funny moments i spent with you.
i hate the feeling that i know i have to give up on you.

i love papa. i love mama. i love jie. i love yang.
i love pei. i love huiling. i love teddyangiie. i love charchar.
i love mavis. i love ceci.
i love felicia laogong. i love dithmoomeiling. i love sunset. i love gaily.
i love kirsten. i love lynnie.
i love weilin. i love ruddie. i love pei.
i love nicolelim. i love chris.
i love jiahuibro. i love xunbin bro.
i love you.

i want love, probably no one can afford to give.
maybe i am somebody people regard as 'cannot give love to'.
i want to change for the better.
i dont want people i love to hate me.
i fear i'll loose everything if the people i love hates me.
i yearn for the liking of people.

i already have the feeling that the people i love are beginning to hate me.
i dont know why.
perhaps im irritating. perhaps i just have a face they feel like bashing up.

yes. you view me as self-centered perhaps.
or selfish.
maybe in your mind you think i receive and dont give.
i can promise you i'll give 10 times what i receive.
until i am drained out of love to giveaway.

yes. you view me as i emo for stupid reasons.
or no apparant reason.
maybe in your mind you think i am just trying to attract attention, or pity.
i can promise you i'll be sad for good reasons.
or never to emo in front of your face anymore.

yes. you view me as an irresponsible person.
or no self discipline person.
maybe in your mind you think you can never live with such a lousy person.
i can promise you i'll try to discipline myself.
or else i will no demand your liking for me anymore.

a hug for me, anybody?
a hug from me, anybody?
i call.
people choose whether to respond anot.

give me a hug, if you love me.
or not, just walk pass me as if you've never seen me.
lets then be just passersby of each others lives.
i'll miss passersby. will you?

imyimyimyihyilyimyimyimy.

i guess im just another passersby in your life
of seeing 400 new faces every new year.
isnt it?
you promised you'll remember me.
do you still remember my existence now?

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