i was 1min earlier thn th usual arrival time of th 3rd 855.
and i waited,
and waited.
it din cm.
i instantly knw tht i missed it.
i knw i cld take th 4th bus, after th 1st experience of missing th 3rd bus.
so i waited,
and waited.
it finally came.
i flagged, attempted to get on it.
it slowed, but did not stop.
and drove off.

i was darn fustrated.
i knw instantly tht if i still waited for th 5th bus i'll be late for sch, for sure.
so i tried to take th alternative route, th 2nd time.
after th 1st time, almost kenna bang by car th previous time.
i din hv a choice.
i had to do it.

i took 163,
this time, this bus's slightly faster thn th 1st time.
i was praying hard.
last time, i alighted at A bus stop.
it was abt 1km away frm th bus stop to take 93.
and lyk i said, i almost killed myself,
cos i dint realise thr were no human traffic lights at tht junction.
so i just dashed across th roads, lyk a maddo.
this time, i decided to alight at A+1 bus stop.
so tht i dun hv to walk 1km,
but jus cross a road.

i THOUGHT again,
all thnks to my sis, AGAIN,
she stated tht it was possible for me to cross th rd thr.
and she told me it was much safer thn th route i took th last time.
i stupidly believed her,
and landed in deep shit trouble.

i alighted at A+1 bus stop.
and i realised thr was no turning bck.
i cldnt directly cross th rd cos there were barriers.
those orange ones, ue knw.
they use for construction purposes.
and so, i had to walk and walk, along th paveless rd.
stupid. th cars were horning their way off.
and so i ran la, natural instinct.
and great, my hp dropped, and rolled right smack
into th middle of th rd.
th car HORNED, thn stopped.
signalled me to pick my phone up.
i heaved a sigh of relief, but thn with abit of embarrasement.
and picked my phone up.
heheeh-ed at th driver,
and made my way to th side of th road,
th paveless, dangerous, FATAL (tht almost applied to me, for BOTH times i attempted to make such dangerous crosses)
rd.

was late for sch.
by a pathetic 5mins.
D:
but, i felt His love(:
i suddenly seem to 'see light',
and i shall nt..
______ _______
anymre!
cos, God loves me :D

thn, i passed mayflower.
woots. i saw th p1 and p2s chionging outta sch, w/ their parents waiting for thm at th gates.
and, i felt..
SO CLOSE..
..
(:

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few days ago,
i saw this old man
tht seems to be energetic,
lyk tht kind tht often goes for exercise, ya knw.
i was standing in 855 las.
thn he was beside me.
whn smone tht was leaning against th window side thr,
he and me lyk wnt to get tht place,
at th same time.
thn he was lyk letting me lean,
i felt bad la, so i ask him lean,
thn he was lyk 'nvmnvm!'
so i smiled and leaned.

few stops ltr,
thr was this empty seat.
i wntd to take it,
but since tht guy let me lean,
i decided to let him sit.
he sat.
and right smack th nxt stop,
thr was this old lady tht came up.
he stood up, and let th old lady take th seat.

i was quite stunned ya,
as he wasnt young or wht.
yeah so we shld all learn frm him (:

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i took my wallet out,
i tapped my card and came outta th MRT.
i dug out sm coins.
i was grabbing thm tight,
they were safe in my palms.

i had prepared thm for this lady,
tht i knw, always sings at th underpass btwn amkhub and amkmrt.
i wntd to do smth for her,
cos i passed her many times, w/o even bothering to look at her.
she always sat thr, w/ her mic.
singing all her might.

i heard her sing frm a distance.
i transferred th coins to my fingers frm my palm.
i walked horizontally towards her.
i saw no one giving her any money.
i was afraid being th extra one.
i stopped in th middle of th crowd, hesitating.
i thn decided to give her.
i walked even closer,

and i walked off.

i feel bad now,
haix.
why am i afraid to do smth gd,
jus becos im afraid of being extra?
i feel stupid.
i suddenly feel as if i dun hv th courage to face her anymre.
:x

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imissue.

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