do you really think
i'd rather be lonely
do you feel that i would
rather be sad
to be by myself in this land
surrounded by loneliness

do you really think
this is my choice
am i really happy with my life
to be banished on my own

in this deaf'ning silence
no one hears my cries
no ounce of courage in this body of mine
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
there's no way out

so tell me now
do you really think
i never miss the good times i had
you will never comprehend

in this deaf'ning silence
no one hears my cries
no ounce of courage in this body of mine
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
there's no way out
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
i'm lost in here
there's no way out

copyrighted SHINE2007
mayflower primary school
singapore

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haixx.
im lost in here and there's no way out.
=xx
if wasnt for people tht love me,
i would hv died long ago..
must as well, since im so lost..

aarhs.
today was actually th first match for nationals round.
but thn, it poured heavily at kallang.
so, th game is postponed to tmr..
which means i hv to skip lsns again.
haixx.

wonder why,
大nicole is starting to stick to cheek and mcnose.
and she's starting to forget abt me.
i thought she would keep our promise of taking care of each other.
but thn,
it obviously shows she doesnt care anymre.

and yuyan was ill these few days,
makes me only sort of close to eva.
and obviously, she would choose to talk to th yr2s la.
nicole is also involved within,
leaving me w/ myself,
often standing thr lyk an idiot.
i tried to convince myself tht they are teammates since y1,
so they're closer..
but thn, i still think im alr outta th team.
sarah, tricia and hueychyi did th friendship thingy to me.
and obviously it was a trick,
and i was too stupid to fall into it.
so i was left alone at th courts,
feeling i've seemed to be thrown outta people's heart and concern.
i felt real deceived.
and as thou they've betrayed my trust on thm.
asked tricia after i realised th trick, wht was it they were thinking of.
she told me 'save water, save th earth'
i told her i din think of tht.
and she went to pretend to ask hueychyi and sarah:
'wht did ue all think of? issit save water, save th earth?'
they both were lyk nodding.
althou i obviously knw it was a lie..
but still i felt thrown out of th team,
unable to connect w/ my teammates.

deceived, i cried.
althou wasnt really intense,
but still scary enough whn i cry in sch.

owells
maybe its jus my problem.
yeahh,
evrything shall jus be my problem,
whtevr.
nobody bothers anyway.
wonder why i've even came to such a pathetic situation.

and im really stuck and lost in th team.
i cnt get out, yet i cnt get in.
im right in between;

aarhs.
tht's jus my fate.
haixx.

go die la yile.
ue useless freak.

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