another day of my life.
played against MGS last friday.
lost.
yeahh, we all sort of sobbed.
sarah and lois cried.
i knw it was a big blow.
but we soon recovered frm it.
preparing ourselves for th 3rd4th match this fri.
jiayou cdiv okay.

=/
i feel veh sad now.
dunno why.
maybe becos of my life.
i feel sad abt my pathetic life.
my life is lyk pathetic.

hmwrk flood me,
sucking up my brain juice.

i disappoint myself,
whn im nt selected to play th matches.
even 1 quater might make me smile;
but thn i dun even hv th ability to play tht quater.

my own life lowers my self-esteem.
becos i feel totally pathetic.
w/ all my failures.

frm head to toe.
i feel extra.
in rv.
in th team.
in silver.
in ppl's life.

evrything in life now is lyk troublesome.
and i suddenly feel tht yuyan's words might jus lead me plunging to my death.
tht day she forced me to change into my pe attire to practice rebounds.
but thn i dint wnt to becos i've alr frm my uni chnged into pe thn bck into uni.
if i chnged into pe i will hv to chnge bck into uni again.
so i told her th story and said it was troublesome.
but thn she came out w/ thousands of reasons to make me chnge.
it all dint convince me.
and before she left w/ a anger-filled face, she told me:
"ya la, this troublesome tht troublesome, must as well say life is troublesome.
why nt jus end yr life to save ue all tht trouble ue gotta go thru?"

yeahh. tts wht she said.
and sooner or later, lyk i always say,
i might jus kill myself.

oh, wht a failure.

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