aiyoh eh this keyboard so hard. somemore so lagg -.-'

saw an airplane yesterday. and managed to hear one at about 7 plus. knew i couldn't see, so din run out and go after it.

my 6 year old neighbour, anna, sort of thought i was stupid to chase the plane as she was at my house when i went after that plane yesterday. she was like telling me "why go after the plane? very fun meh?n issit your hobby?"

-.-'

she'll never understand anyway, so why bother explaining to her, a 6 year old girl that knows nothing about dreams, beliefs, and passion?

not only her i guess, but practically no one will ever understand the sorrow within me. i've went for yearly checkups at NUH, and i've only met another night blindness patient once. maybe there is only 2 of us in singapore ba. its a rare disease after all...

wonder if this will ever heal. the chinese doctor said that it might make me go blind. the best case at 50. imagine how scary it is to wake up to find yourself never to see anything again. at most, well, 50-12=38 years to go? dunno whether those words should be taken for real. but what if its real?

there are night blindness patients going blind as soon as 20+. gosh. less than 10 years left for me? i really dunno...

Labels: ambitions, emo, piece of life